Nick.

i actually can’t even believe that its my birthday day in 5 days, i really don’t feel like im turning a new age :/

so much has happened over the last three weeks, two peoples from this family, their birthday have just gone by with not much celebration and the rents wedding anniversary went by with no celebration at all

i honestly can’t believe how much i really miss you :/ its all happened all of a sudden and its all a bit of a blur tbh and I’m still not really down with it all, i still think that its all a dream and i’ll will go round and he will be there in his chair reading his book like he used to when he was around. But i know that i will never see him again. :( 

R.I.P Granddad <3 iloveyou  

i love Mcdonald’s breakfast (L)

playingtheblamegame:

good times

OMFG SAME! <3

i stand here before you yet again but this time for a slightly different reason…
i ask of one favour and one favour only look after him for me please?
i know that he will be fine but just keep an eye on him for me, i know what he is like and i know that he will flirt with all the ladies and get drunk, but that is just the way he is, the way i will remember him, for ever and for always. Walking into that viewing room…seeing you lay there so peacefully and quiet, watching you smile was the single most hardest thing i have ever had to do and it even made my dad cry…just speaking to you in that room made me think how much i really do love you and how much of a father figure to me you were, teaching me valuable life skills…days on the beach, on Portland rock climbing. i miss those days so much. The thing that killed me the most was talking to you and knowing that your never coming back to us… 
You lay there just how i remembered you…happy and just a bundle of joy to be around. Now your gone, everything has changed…Christmas isn’t going to be the same without you there…well this Christmas is going to be so hard for everyone and so will the next year or so, because you are the sticky gloopy glue holding this family together. You seriously best take care…and watch our every move whilst your up there because i know you will and you will make sure that we are doing the right thing, and our choices in life are going to be you on our concious guiding us to way through life. All i have to say is thank you for everything, i still have those toy cars that you gave to me, i see them as soon as a walk in the door of my bedroom, always will bring a smile to my face. 
Let your heart, body and soul rest in peace good sir, and remember we all love you.
GaryStevens <3